-A smushed piece of dialogue from Incredibles.

I am very tired.

Physically exhausted from running about campus and then running about dancing and just running around in general.

Mentally exhausted from thermodynamics and middle voice and congressional procedures.

Emotionally exhausted from researching/thinking about abortion. And from a long week of being, for the most part, rather alone. I'm just beginning to realize what an abhorrent loner I am at school. The belatedness of this realization is also making me realize how dense I am. The combination is very tiring, perhaps more to the ego than the emotions.

Conscience-ally exhausted from the fact that I've been putting minimal effort into my government class and still scraped an A out of the first exam (purely by the good grace of the teacher. Yes, there's a great big pile of smoldering coals on my head right now. Boy, does grace sting.)

Spiritually exhausted from thinking about myself. A few days ago we read Romans 12 in family devotions - "be not conformed to the world." As I look at various options in my life or even just ways to live the present situation, all I find is more worldly conformity in myself. I'm ready to put my head down and cry. Oh wait, I've already done that.

For all that, I'm really not depressed. Tired, yes (I should think that comes across pretty clearly) - but I'm starting to actually like being tired. It's better than feeling full of energy which I know should have been spent on something productive.

I'm precenting Sabbath. Someone told me something about that day which will affect my attire, but I won't say what.

I shall leave you with a quote from Eliot:

"As things are, and as fundamentally they must always be, poetry is not a career, but a mug's game. No honest poet can ever feel quite sure of the permanent value of what he has written: He may have wasted his time and messed up his life for nothing."

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1. Marigold on February 28, 2009 at 8:47 PM

   Sorry that you're exhausted in so many ways! *hugs to Inky*
   
   I take it the quote is by T. S. Eliot and not George Eliot, then?

    
2. Unknown on March 3, 2009 at 8:41 PM

   TELL ME WHAT IS AFFECTING YOUR ATTIRE?

    
3. MJC on March 5, 2009 at 12:02 AM

   "Smushed" is lol. :) I hope you found a break to take somewhere between the touching of these keys and today's date. To paraphrase from 022409, "Withdraw, relax, regroup and attack," Smudge Ana. :) :)

    
4. Hayward Attic Insulation on December 13, 2022 at 6:54 PM

   Thank you ffor this